Used to be

I don't know anymore
I'm confused all so more
I don't know, I really don't
We used to best of friends
You may not be the best, but you're to me
Memories, everything
They all flashed back
I remember how close we were
It was so close till I can feel your heartbeat
Even though, everyone
Told me to go
They said you weren't worth
They said I will know
I didn't believe, anything
I still remember how I told them
To look at your good points instead because that's all I see
They told me not to be silly, they told to leave you
I didn't, I didn't
I stay with you through everything
I remember how
Our hearts were conected
Whenever you were hurt or unwell
My heart would hurt
I remember when I was hurt
You somehow feel some hurt
Remember that time you hurt your thumb so badly
It couldn't hold anything
I helped you with your work
I saw you try so hard, just to hold up the spoon
You said you wanted to try but
I couldn't bear to see you hurt everytime you tried
I picked it up and fed you everyday
Do you still remember that time
When the doctor said there was something wrong with your hip
It was somehow protuding
I accompanied you to the doctor every week
To do that therapy
No matter how tired I was
I still sticked with you through everything
You said you can never find someone as sweet as me
Someone that would do this for you
Someone that still wants to be your friend even when all the others hates you
I guess it changed
Everything changed
You started to ignore me
We drifted apart, slowly but surely
Then one day, it just ended
Everything, just ended
You will never know how I feel
How sad I feel
I still tried to talk to you but all you did was ignore me
Okay, I assume its my fault
All my fault
I don't know anymore, I just don't
Now I see you all lonely
Walking all alone
My heart really aches
All you do is give me that stare
That stare that tells me to go away
Its okay I will
I will never bother you again
But please don't ask me to forget everything
Everything we went throught together
I won't
All those happy memories
They, will stay in my heart forever
Well, this is already quite long, about a year ago, but I will never forget, our everything, your everything, you. Your smile, your eyes, your hugs.
Okayyyyy, why am I crying? I feel so stupid, haha. Okay, I am a complete idiot and too, a weirdo. Erm thanks for reading, so yeah, thanks.