Still, happy birthday

Two years ago, this day, this time, I was happy.
This year, this day, this time, I am not.

Its not about national day, not at all.
Its about someone.
Someone I will never forget, ever.

If only time could stop, stop two years ago, this day, this time, I might still be happy.
That day was the happiest day of my life and that day, was your birthday.
I never bothered planning any birthday surprises before, but that day, I did, for you.
I didn't even know how to boo someone, well, I mean for adults.
It didn't quite work out though. I was going to boo you but you came too early and so it was pretty much awkward.
You came home, with some food.
Probably the tastiest ever.
It wasn't really the food but because it was bought by you.
It was my first time, feeding someone and somehow, it felt so special.
I remember how I was chasing you around, with my camera.
It was the last memory, at least for that time.

I have to capture every moment.
Time for the real surprise.
This day, this time, I was waiting outside the room. I stood there, with a cake in my hand.
The cake, was so cute, just like you. It seemed so long, or maybe I was just too nervous.
BOO. I did it.
Happy birthday to you happy birthday to you, happy birthday to jie jie, happy birthday to you.
You were so happy. You were so touched. You were so close to tears.
Then, we spent the evening together. I really love tickling you.
It was just too cute a moment, too precious to let it go.
Bang. That coffee table, you were in pain.
My heart shattered into million of pieces.
I know it isn't something big but still, it hurts. I felt so guilty.
I shouldn't have made you laugh. Laugh so hard that you hit that coffee table.
I was sorry but you said it wasn't my fault.
It ended with a smile.

That was best day ever.
A day where I could make you happy all again.
Sometimes when I see you sad, my heart aches a little. Okay, actually quite a lot to be honest.
I like to make you laugh. When I see you smiling and all happy again, I will be too.

I wished that moment lasted forever and by forever, I mean forever.
Still, happy birthday :(