What "Adult" sounds like

Now that I'm 18, the thought of being an adult scares me. It depends but some think that at 18 you're still a child, sometimes a teenager, and perhaps, already an adult. Adult, 1 word with just 5 letters, but it scares me. I don't know what is it like to be one. It's more than owning a house and perhaps a car, a job and a family. Maybe it's about taking up responsibilities, knowing what you're actually doing and so much more.

The humans of this world won't say, ''it's okay, you're still a child, you don't know everything about how the world works. We won't blame you for anything, just learn from this. Okay?'' Because now, everything is not okay, and it's changing to ''So now what? Am I a joke to you? Look at how old you are, I can't believe you don't know what you're doing, wake your idea man.'' And there again, you're supposed to have a hold of your life, have a happy family, a social life, a stable but high income job, luxuries, support for your parents, and the list goes on.

Basically, be successful and perfect in everything. Dreams? are out of the question. That's only for young kids or teenagers who still live in their own world, thinking that everyone can achieve their dream. All this time, it is just an illusion. In this world we live in, how many humans are actually doing what they love as their jobs? How many have the whole checklist up there ticked? How many.. are actually happy?

Dreams no longer exist explicitly, at most, hidden deep inside our hearts, knowing all we can do is imagine that it's happening, and that we're having the time of our lives. No longer do we need to be realistic, or be responsible for anything or anyone other than ourselves. This free world we live where we can do anything we always wanted to.

You see, the world expects so much of you, and sometimes, your best isn't good enough for anything or anyone. And sometimes, I wish I didn't know all this.

And maybe, I'll still live in that beautiful bubble of mine, thinking that everyone is happy and the world is beautiful.