Start again

Tears are a sign of the start of a new life
Since birth
Our first tear shows that we're alive

So now
For every tear we fear to shed
Know that it is okay
Becuase we're starting again

Pesticides

Just like pesticides
Carrying diseases
That population is taking over this earth
Without us even realizing

We think we chased them away
But actually
They're already building their home
Beneath us
And maybe that's why sometimes
We get earthquakes
Because they're shaking our grounds
The foundation of our lives
That we didn't even bother building with our hearts

And when it shakes and trembles
That's when they conquer
Us

Halting light

My heart trembles
While you look at me
All the city lights
Shining at our shadow
The music stops
When they hear our love

The cars come to a halt
When they see your face shining in the light
Pausing their breath
To your cute dimples
While your soul
Traps my heart
In a place
I will never tell anyone

The beautiful space

Let's travel the world together
See the beauty in the little things
We'll usually miss
The gaps in things that might seem empty
But nothing less to the eyes we use to see
In every step we take
We'll keep learning

Let's talk about the things
That make us not so happy
The dreams we've never got to achieve
Time that stops while moving
Heart that stops while we're still breathing

Let's fill the space in our hearts
And make everything
Less empty

Spears

I see the spears in all of your eyes
Piercing through my mind
I swear I wouldn't cry
But I know it hurts inside
No matter how much I deny

I wouldn't dare to say that there was one time
No one looked at me with those eyes
Right into my mind

An empty blank

I see
The blank in your eyes
The pale in your lips

I thought I heard
You saying
Please save me
Why don't you all see
Me

Why don't you all even turn to me
I haven't been alright lately

I have been there for everyone
But now that I need someone
Where has everyone gone to

What "Adult" sounds like

Now that I'm 18, the thought of being an adult scares me. It depends but some think that at 18 you're still a child, sometimes a teenager, and perhaps, already an adult. Adult, 1 word with just 5 letters, but it scares me. I don't know what is it like to be one. It's more than owning a house and perhaps a car, a job and a family. Maybe it's about taking up responsibilities, knowing what you're actually doing and so much more.

The humans of this world won't say, ''it's okay, you're still a child, you don't know everything about how the world works. We won't blame you for anything, just learn from this. Okay?'' Because now, everything is not okay, and it's changing to ''So now what? Am I a joke to you? Look at how old you are, I can't believe you don't know what you're doing, wake your idea man.'' And there again, you're supposed to have a hold of your life, have a happy family, a social life, a stable but high income job, luxuries, support for your parents, and the list goes on.

Basically, be successful and perfect in everything. Dreams? are out of the question. That's only for young kids or teenagers who still live in their own world, thinking that everyone can achieve their dream. All this time, it is just an illusion. In this world we live in, how many humans are actually doing what they love as their jobs? How many have the whole checklist up there ticked? How many.. are actually happy?

Dreams no longer exist explicitly, at most, hidden deep inside our hearts, knowing all we can do is imagine that it's happening, and that we're having the time of our lives. No longer do we need to be realistic, or be responsible for anything or anyone other than ourselves. This free world we live where we can do anything we always wanted to.

You see, the world expects so much of you, and sometimes, your best isn't good enough for anything or anyone. And sometimes, I wish I didn't know all this.

And maybe, I'll still live in that beautiful bubble of mine, thinking that everyone is happy and the world is beautiful.

Too precious

You may not hear
But that's only to protect you
From hearing the noises of this world

You may not speak
But that's only so you show it
Through your actions

You may not walk
But that's only to slow you down
In this fast-paced society

You may not see
But that's only to protect your beautiful eyes
To look at everyone with that heart of yours

All these happen
Not because you're not loved
But perhaps because you're too precious

The loudest whisper

If you believe in someone
They don't have to be everything
That is not believing anymore
Because you can see it

Believing is trusting in a hope
Even it seems like it's empty
The loudest little voice that whispers
''I believe in you''

Just like a white canvas
I see all that in you
That no one else sees

Umbrella

I stand
While the memories hit me like raindrops
And the wind blows coldly against me
Humans brushing by
But the umbrella no longer seem to protect me anymore

On sunny days
It just pierces through the umbrella
And hits me on my face
I look up
Only to see the umbrella disappearing

And all this time
I was just holding on to
Nothing
All I had was the handle

And I thought I was holding on to you
The umbrella

Surrounding

Listening to the crashing waves
Seeing little fishes swimming against the tide
With the company of the comforting wind

Rods leaning on the side
Birds flying by
And the beautiful smell of the ocean

All that beauty surrounding me
But inside
Knowing I can't stay for long

Behind your smile

Behind your smile
I see more than your eyes
A lonely world
Surrounded by an empty space

A running film
Flashing across your eyes
No one else seems to notice
While I sit afar

Just looking into your eyes

Game of life

You start off with almost nothing
Thinking it's all fun and games
A walk in the park

Without even knowing
You're levelling up
And now
You have new 'abilities'

This thing called walking
Running and jumping
Just like any other game
And you thought that was all
But it's more than that

You start to have allies
Along with a couple of enemies
Just like how it usually works
Fighting battles after battles together
Thinking you're a team
But that's just what you think

At the end of the day
Your allies
Are nothing more than computer generated characters

Those you thought you could trust
In the end
Turns out to be merely an illusion
And you're back to ground zero

Of course
That's not all
You get thrown around
Into the deep ends
Of emptiness

Fighting for what you thought you are
Only to realize
That all this time
Your greatest enemy was yourself
And everything else didn't even exist
Even your allies and enemies

All these
Was just your imagination
And nothing more than that

Now
Knowing you stand alone

Forever

More than flowers

Flowers are like people

Fake flowers
Look good on the outside
But they're not real
And were never once alive

Real flowers
Have beautiful aspects
But too have some flaws
Just like real people
Needing maintenance
Sun water and love

But when they bloom
It's the most beautiful thing ever

Collector: Tears

This world wants to collect all of our tears
And every jar it fills
It just laughs a little inside

And yet
There's someone out there
Who would do anything to make you smile

So when you found that someone
Draw them close
Into your embrace

And don't ever let them go

Ever

Ignite: A fireplace in the winter

It's funny how humans reject Those that seem different When in fact They are special

It might take a lot for us To just Smile But they smile the brightest And ignite a fire Just from the simplest things

Warming up the entire world Just like a fireplace While we're the winter That colds the heart And harden smiles

Don't you think We should think About what we're thinking

We see them as aliens But they're only human
And perhaps To them We are the aliens Do you think they want to be born this way Not understanding so much in this seemingly simple world Don't you think they deserve the most love And your smile

:)

Circling circle

Life is like a circle
There are infinite points until
It's almost like there's no point in life

There's no start or end
And maybe we've gone everywhere
But nowhere at the same time

Thinking we know where we're heading
When all this time
We're just
Circling in circles

Darkest light: Blent

We

Blind to our own blindness
Deaf to the calls of help
Silent to the loudest cry

Will we
Let our little heart grow
Or continue to walk
In this darkest light

Someone's eyes

I've walked the path
That I didn't go
Hear the voices
Of those I don't know

Now that my eyes have opened so wide
I'm afraid to look into someone's eyes
Knowing that they cried
And that someone has to die


Inside

The book: Friendship

Let friendships bring us a long way
Where smiles turn into wrinkles
And until our hair turns white
Till the time our legs are weak

But if one day it expires
I'll renew that book
To read our stories again