Lamps

I didn't notice the lamps until today
Each of them was hanging by a thread
In loneliness

Swinging as the wind blows
Giving off a little light
But together
Lighting up the whole place

I can't help
But see each of us in this world
As these lamps

My tidal wave

Once upon a time
A tidal wave of emotions flooded me

I never knew it was possible to feel so much
So much that no one understands
Sometimes I wish I didn't feel anything at all

Perhaps in this world
It is better to be cold
Than to be hurt
And to be able to feel for someone

Start again

Tears are a sign of the start of a new life
Since birth
Our first tear shows that we're alive

So now
For every tear we fear to shed
Know that it is okay
Becuase we're starting again

Music

My refuge, a happy pill
When I let its beat
Enter my heart
I feel alive, again
It's like I found, a reason

Cherish

I want to cherish every moment
Because every second after
It becomes a memory
And I won't ever have it again

I smile at the littlest thing
Even if it's only for a second out of
86400 seconds a day
43200 minutes a month
8760hours a year

Pesticides

Just like pesticides
Carrying diseases
That population is taking over this earth
Without us even realizing

We think we chased them away
But actually
They're already building their home
Beneath us
And maybe that's why sometimes
We get earthquakes
Because they're shaking our grounds
The foundation of our lives
That we didn't even bother building with our hearts

And when it shakes and trembles
That's when they conquer
Us

Cement to ground

I walked in
To a crowd
Filled with adults

All I could do was look down
Staring at the booklet I was handed
Voices, silence and laughters
Soon filled the space
Everything was a blur

My hand gripped the book so hard
That the pages were probably shattering inside
But I couldn't help it
For there was an earthquake in me

Thankfully
Your presence was the cement
To the breaking ground
Filling all the spaces in between

Calendario: March

On the very first day of March, I did more than I did the whole of last month. Aside from writing, I cooked, I drew, I explored, I photographed. These are things I enjoy doing but haven't been doing so. But it's worth it to wait. I learnt that there are things you need to do, no matter whether you like. When that calls, follow. At that point, you might not be able to do much of the things you enjoy, but press on, because it is waiting for you as patiently as you have been. If you have been impatient, the chance will disappear. However, if you wait, your rewards will be close. Despite some challenging decisions, I have been working on something every day. //No matter how small it might seem now, I know that it will slowly build up to somewhere I want to be.//

Time has been passing some quickly. Sometimes I wonder if I am doing something wrong, but then I realized time passes quickly when you are enjoying it. In comparison to the past year, I am indeed happier. Not because things have been perfect but because I have been learning to pace myself, as well as regulate my emotions. Things that might have a lot of effect on me in the past, does not affect me as much now. //Challenges did not grow any smaller, it's just that I am looking at it in a different light now.//

Calendario: Every month in this world is a chapter. What will start to unravel, or will life remain stagnant?

Rewind back to: Chapter 2

In a crowd

How do I find myself in a crowd
A place where we all seem the same
Maybe for this once
We feel alike

Aimlessly
We walk this life
Not knowing how
It should go about

Where's the guide
I think we're lost
One more time
Again and again

It happens all the time
That I think
Maybe
That's alright

Perhaps we just have to
Get used to
Life

Halting light

My heart trembles
While you look at me
All the city lights
Shining at our shadow
The music stops
When they hear our love

The cars come to a halt
When they see your face shining in the light
Pausing their breath
To your cute dimples
While your soul
Traps my heart
In a place
I will never tell anyone

【1st GIVEAWAY】+ Thank you

I started blogging just as a way to express myself. I didn't know anyone would read my writings. This year, I hit 18 000 on Sfondato (my blog), and over 150 000 on G+ and expanded into instagram. It might seem really little for well-known writers but it means a lot to me. Especially when my readers share their personal stories with me.

I am really thankful for all my readers and everyone who encouraged me along the way. Hence, I am holding my first giveaway :)

Stand a chance to win a gift set which includes a 3-in-1 stylus ballpoint pen, along with a notebook and drawing book!

How to join? Simply:

1) Follow me @justateddyberry on G+
2) +1/ Share this giveaway post
3) Comment down below one thing you like about my writing style & lastly, tag a friend

- Open to humans all over the world (not just in SG, unless you live in north pole haha)
- Giveaway will end on 13 April 23:59 PST
- Winner will be chosen & notified by 15 April 23:59 PST.
- Note: This giveaway is running on different platforms- my blog & instagram, 1 overall winner will be chosen

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Winner: @call_me_einnn from instagram

Why am I like this?

Again and again
I ask myself

Why are you like that?
Why don't you like what everyone else likes?
Why do you have to make life difficult for yourself?
Why can't you just do what everyone else does?
Why can't you be like every other kid out there?
Why don't you just be what your parents tell you to be?
Why don't you just do what everyone else does for a living?
Why do you have to like something almost no one likes?
Why don't you simply live your life like how everyone else does it?

And most of all,
Why don't you like yourself

A lonely crowd

Loneliness is not when you are alone
But feeling consumed by this world
And filled with emptiness
While being in a crowd